sabby47

Another late night where I'm trying to sleep but can't. I never thought my life could be completely flipped upside down so quickly but I received a phone call mid-May that sent me racing back home. My best friend was diagnosed out of the blue with stage 4 metastic melanoma and she was the last person anyone ever believed that this was a possibility. I stay strong and keep my spirits up around her and around people at the rink but for the most part I constantly feel like I'm about to fall apart. I've never dealt with anything like this in my life and the last person that past away that I was close to was when I was really young. I always thought it would be a parent that would get sick or pass away and I honestly don't know how to cope with seeing someone I love and am so close to going through something like this. Today is day 60 after they gave her two months in the hospital and I'm sure that's part of why I feel so heavy tonight. She's a hockey girl so she is such a fighter and I'm so proud of everything that she's endured and fought through. She's been through two brain surgeries, 3 weeks of radiation, home health, one round of an IV cancer drug, and now just found out she has a blood clot. Alone, I try to keep positive because I know she is going to fight with everything she has in her but I am still so emotionally overwhelmed and scared for the future. To see someone I love and am so close to go through this is heartbreaking and makes me realize I am nowhere near as strong as I once thought I was. Sorry to vent that I feel selfish with my own emotions but I don't feel like I should vent/confide with anyone I know.

Dallas sucks. I never saw myself moving any further south than where I was before and I can definately say my opinion has not changed. As soon as I finish school we are moving to WI or PA.. yeesh. I didn't think I'd miss being at the rink 6-7 days a wk but I about don't know what to do with myself with all this free time I'm not used to having. At least the guys on our beer league team are a blast to play and drink with, because that's about all I have to look forward to every week.

Had to deal with police officers after our game tonight because my teammate's girlfriend (fan) and the girl on the other team were screaming at each other after the girl barely put her shoulder into him. This caused no injury (it barely even moved him) and had no impact on a scoring opportunity or anything. All of this apparently lead to verbal altercation in the parking lot that I was not witness to but was very close to a fight from what I heard. Seriously. 1) This is hockey: it's a physical game even in a non-check league. 2) It is only a game: no one is getting paid to play 3) Bitches be crazy 4) Knock it off, you're making the rest of us (women) look bad!

Thanks guys! I have been sitting on the idea for a few yrs and finally got around to making it. I used hockey medals and table hockey players for ornaments and hockey laces for garland. It wasn't too bad (aside from the carbon fiber splinters) even though I was totally winging it, so I'm pretty pleased with the way it turned out.

After 3 years of procrastination I finally made my tree this week!

Finished XMas shopping today- decided to stop into a card show for the heck of it on the way to get wrapping paper. Found a McFarlane Sakic figure for my mom! Score!

Radio, we taped the back and they stayed on the whole game! Pretty sure we were about 6x more intimidating..lol

My best friend and I rockin the dusters for Movember during our coed game Sunday.

Boyle is an awesome coach, hope you enjoyed his camp!

From a couple months ago: Feels good to finally feel a little more secure with my knee and can play the puck a little more aggressively. I've upgraded my skates and sticks since these pics since I don't anticipate having surgery anytime soon. *knock on wood*

I was playing last night, pivoted on one foot to turn towards the deflected puck and felt something pop in my knee. I had the ATC at work look at it today and he thinks it's MCL and LCL, I go see my ortho doc tomorrow morning. Someone just take me out to pasture and shoot me already!

Dear Pain In My Ass League Player, You Sir, are the epitome of every idiot in adult hockey. Out of the 343 league players you are the only one that feels the need to run your mouth and cause problems in every single game, no matter what level. You are obviously a very weak-minded person and I feel sorry for whatever happened to you in your past that turned you into someone that preys on the weak or the ones unable to retaliate against you. Whether that's because you're only 5'2" or because your dick doesn't touch your underwear, I'm still not completely sure. The thing about you is that you are just sneaky enough that you know how to munipulate the system and stay in that grey area to get away with things. I find it funny that you don't understand why someone would whale on you after you threaten to kill their wife and break their neck, pulling their feet from them on a breakaway and sending them flying into the boards while you proclaim innocence. That's not even the touching all the other things you say and do to officials, timekeepers, players and fans. Your immaturity doesn't stop there, you continue to harass me about how my team supposedly paid off the refs during our last game against your team, and that's it's an obvious conspiracy why refs call penalties on you. Here's a thought, keep your mouth shut and keep your stick to yourself! Maybe if you didn't pull out your mouthguard at every stop in play to bitch at the refs they wouldn't know you so well. By the way, you can have my ref jersey anytime and see just how "easy" it is. Seriously, out of all the people we've had probems with, you are the only one of them that hasn't made some sort of an effort to change the way they play the game. You're not a child, you're 38 years old. Grow the fuck up! This is beer league and you're only playing for a damn $7 tshirt. In the whole spectrum of life, this doesn't mean shit and I'm sorry that this apparently means so much more to you than the rest of us! So thank you, Douchebag, for ruining something I used to have a passion for and enjoyed doing as I work through college. Do us all a favor and choke on your mouthguard, no one will miss you. Hugs & Kisses! -One pissed off, frustrated hockey director

A few from last night's game. My bf is in net.

Got into a wreck on the highway this morning on the way to work. As soon as it happened I got out of my car to make sure the guy that rearended me was ok and the douche didn't even roll down his window or ever get out of his car. Thankfully everyone involved is alright and it didn't do much to my car but his little box on wheels (Scion) is another story. Have a bit of a neck/headache and really hope I don't have to miss my game tomorrow!

Louisiana made an offer to move the whole company to Baton Rouge.... Our mayor is to meet with the company CEO to try to keep the company here. Things aren't looking so good right now.

New rink GM took away all my keys except to the office. I don't even have a key to get into where I keep my gear! Oh well I guess when someone needs to pay or register for league, the lazy icemen forget to unlock the locker rooms, the lights go out that are on a timer or someone gets hurt and I'm not on the clock I'm not going to spend 10 mins trying to track someone down for a damn key. Fuck it. If no one else is worried I guess I shouldn't be either. Pretty damn irritated and close to quitting right now.

Bf surprisingly bought me a Jeep after knowing how much I've missed mine since it was killed last summer. Not the prettiest thing in the world, but hey, it's a Jeep and it will be more of a toy than anything. This could quite possibly be better than a ring.

Bf got moved to second shift for three months a couple weeks ago and I've been getting creeped out being at home alone at night since he doesn't get home til 3am. So, maybe all the blinds are pulled shut and I make sure all the doors and windows are locked once or twice a night.. Hand gun and hockey stick are within an arms reach from the bed I have a feeling it's going to be a stressful home for awhile as his company announced this week that they are laying off 75% of it's workforce within the next 2-5 years and/or it's also planning to move the company out of the state.

Really digging Volbeat right now.

ouch, sorry to hear! wishing you a fast recovery!

Well almost 4 months post knee surgery and I played in my first game back Wed. I was seriously contemplating giving up the sport for awhile but it's hard to give up something that your life is so centered around. I still have a lot of strength and speed to gain back but I can't wait for the KC tourney next weekend!

Been a month since knee surgery and still haven't skated. I thought this was going to be an easy one compared to the others but I think I've set myself up to be dissapointed. The calf pain is almost gone now but now dealing with swollen and inflamed bursae. Not playing hockey is starting to make me a crotchity dick.

Had knee surgery Wed and they gave me a femural nerve block so my leg was numb for 24 hours. That night I was pivoting to shut a door and must have put too much weight on it as I fell landing with my surgery leg underneath me. So glad I didn't feel anything then other than my elbow and shoulder slamming against the doorframe/counter but I am sore as hell now.... I'm asking for bubblewrap head to toe next X-Mas.

Had knee surgery this morning and all they had to do was trim some meniscus. ACL is in place and they left it alone. = )

Don't tell me that you effed it up again!!?? Well MRI shows ligaments in tact even though they he says they're a bit loose (common for revisions). But when he was messing with it you can feel and hear it click so it's more than likely meniscus. He said I would know by mid week if it was no better I would probably need a "tune up". Go go gadget leg..