I didn't play hockey, or football/soccer, though I did catch and play first base in baseball. Mostly, I was a swimmer, so maybe there's a certain independence factor. (Masters/Senior swimming is just way too intense for me, even if I worked up my speed to something respectable. How on earth can people be so gear focused when they wear goggles and a scrap of lycra?)
I'm doing better about not being hard on myself - I like to feel like I'm competitive, but at the same time, I don't want to wander into a thicket of despair over playing hockey. I like hockey. I like my teammates. If some butthead hurt any of my teammates, I would set the butthead's house on fire. (well, maybe just his gear.) I want more people to like hockey (that's why I like coaching. I will, ultimately, end up with more teammates that way). And it's funny, because I certainly don't get mad at my teammates for their slip-ups.
This league that I used to play for as a skater, and with which I've done a number of goalie clinics, is having tryouts for a C/D level tournament team - just for tournaments, no commitment to play the WHOLE schedule. They're mostly a good bunch of people - it's small, the guy who owns the league is personable and sensible, and I've been skating for them off and on since they started. I figure it's worth a shot, if just for a laugh.