Curious as to how this is going with the OP? And what did you end up doing?
I had similar feelings going on last year. It would start up close to the time I needed to leave for my league games and I would start thinking of reasons not to go. I really enjoy my teammates and the ability to play, but I think my issue was the league I skate in. There are only 3 other teams and I was sick of skating against the same goons every week. Sure winning is definitely a better feeling than losing week in and out, but I was almost more worried about taking a cheap shot and being intentionally injured.
I ended up taking last summer off and then the rest of the year just to give myself a break. It worked out well for me at least. Came back to my team after the beginning of the year felt a lot better about the game. Still taking some time to get my game back, and thereโs still a little apprehension on my end about getting out there against certain skaters, but at the end the day Iโm glad to be skating again. I definitely missed having a night out of the house with the boys!
Hope everything is working out for the OP.