JoeyJ0506

My "Just Because" Gloves

I agree 100%, all the times I was able to "control" it in the past was like patching a hole in a submarine with chewing gum and scotch tape. This time feels different somehow. I think it is because I have willing let some trusted people in on what is going on with me and where it originates from and how I can go about letting go and forgiving for what caused me to end up where I was. I will say this, I never really thought much of how much bullying can affect the balance of an individual until I really did some soul searching and found out most of my insecurities, anger, and depression originate in one specific place and time in my life.

To give a run-down of where I am: I have struggled with some form of depression in one way or another since I was about 13 years old. My grandfather (responsible for raising me in all but the living in the same house way) passed away when I was 15 and I repressed almost all forms of emotion since. I would have an outburst here and there of rage, or uncontrollable sadness but nothing I was ever able to not control. Fast forward last 7 months and I have not been able to repress it or control it. It has affected my work, friendships, and relationship. Why is this in the "sweet spot" you may be asking. Well about 35 days ago I decided it was time to admit it was a problem. With more help than I think I deserved from someone that I hurt the most because of it, I was able to stop feeling sorry for myself and start doing something to change it. Namely, talk openly with other people about the pain I was experiencing, seek some professional help, and get back to the gym. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, even though I know that it is still a long journey to reach.

About half our league fee per season.

Players on my Rec League team that do not help support the Restaurant & Bar that sponsors us. Really frustrating when planning a "team" event and half the guys don't show.

Not sure if serious?

If they tested for the combination of Jello and Coconut Rum I would be SOL

After being out of work for the majority of the last eight months I have been offered a pretty awesome job that pays well, has benefits, and is close to home. It really makes the river of crap I've been swimming through worth it. Employment is pending a drug test, but being as I've never partaken, I should be working within the next week and a half.

It's not like I'm even a slob or anything, I'm six foot and solidly built. Played varsity baseball through high school and four years of college, and still work out every day. I'm just not cut/ripped/shredded and never will be, it's not in my genes, plus I love to cook and eat. (Guys at WF and SJ will tell you I'm not lying) Anyway, every guy at the gym was cut from the same "Jersey Shore-esque) mold and I could tell from the look I got that the position he I was interviewing for was not filled, but I didn't fit the profile. And thank you for the kind words, I am praying and have my fingers crossed that one of these interviews really pans out. And congratulations, by the way :)

Went to my second interview (at a nation-wide gym chain) sales manager comes out, takes one look at me and says "position's been filled" turned around and walked back to his desk. It was pretty apparent the Roided-Out gorilla didn't want someone that doesn't fit into his army of juiced-up super soldiers selling gym memberships. I am not overly pissed I didn't interview or get the job (I have two much more promising interviews for more lucrative jobs next week) I was more upset with the hour-and-a-half round trip I had to take. Nothing like watching $20 in gasoline go down the drain.

They should both just wear helmets full-time

I know them both, she'd be the beater not the beatee

Something along these lines started a blow-out family fight at Thanksgiving dinner last week. What a mess, I'm sorry to see someone else dealing with it.

Was politely told today that I am no longer in the running for a job I interviewed for two weeks ago. It is really starting to get ridiculous.

So, had a job interview today and had to cancel. Felt great in the morning yesterday, then went to do community service with the youth group I volunteer with. In the sun the temperature was in the mid-70's, so I wore shorts and a tee-shirt. They moved our group to shaded area half way through... started shivering and getting chills almost instantly. Around 730-8 I started getting really tired/dizzy, and couldn't get myself warm, ended up in bed by 930. Called the recruiter's office and apologized for cancelling last minute. Today, the chills are not as bad, but I still am light-headed and foggy. I hope it passes quickly.

Helmet: Bauer 4500 Visor: Itech Tinted Pro Straight Cut Shoulder: Prostock Warrior Projekt (Silver Shield Liner) Elbow: Easton NHL 700 (2 Pairs) Pants: Warrior Hustler Shin: Jofa 8090 Skate: Bauer Total One Gloves: Warrior Custom Luxe, Warrior Custom Franchise, Warrior AK27 Pro (2 Pairs), Easton Z-Air Pro Stick: Mission TI-Pro Pro-Stock (Hossa x4), Bauer One90 Pro (Hossa)

Joe at Warrior assured me it was the same color I was seeing on the Islanders and Oilers gloves before I would order. haha

Here you go: http://desmond.imageshack.us/Himg266/scaled.php?server=266&filename=glovecollage.jpg&res=medium

These will be in/on my hands sometime next week: 14" Custom LUXE Navy Tufftek, Lime Carbon, & White Carbon White Mesh Gussets MicroNash Combo Palms V80 + ProPack Foams Made In Canada

If by equipment sale you mean overpriced game-used sticks then, yes, there was an equipment sale. Honestly anything worth buying will end up on eBay in the next couple of months the same way it has the last few seasons. This was an event held by PensGear in the CEC to clear out the store's merchandise. It was not a true "Equipment Sale." All of the used and new gloves, helmets, sticks, skates, pads, etc. go out the back door to two or three eBay retailers. Here's a link to a thread on LGP describing the sale: LINK TO INFO

"Brass" is the same color the Penguins use...

I'm almost 24 now. The thing is the doctors will not put me on a "just in case" medication. Since I do not get them often enough I'm left to depend on Excedrin Migraine to take the edge off of them. I have to avoid caffeine, chocolate (I'm allergic to it anyway, so this is a no-brainer), and bright lights (hello tinted visors) all the time as they're all triggers. And then there are the ones where there really was no trigger it just happens. As soon as I feel my hands start to go numb, or the aura appears I pop two pills, and get into bed. Perhaps the worst part, however, is that my mind feels foggy for up to a week after them, it's miserable when I have something I need to really be sharp to do well.

One of the worst migraines I've had since I started having them in 7th or 8th grade. Couldn't see much of anything for a few hours. Tried the sleeping trick for the worst of it, woke up and promptly vomited. Now every time I sneeze I feel like someone is driving an ice pick into my brain... Finally, let's not even get started on the pressure behind my eyes.

Same things the Islanders have on their gloves. I have the carbon on mine and I was told that the color is consistent through all three materials.